I have regrets.
Huge, glaring, haunt my heart regrets.
Things that when I look back on, I wish I would have done differently.
They are the thoughts that sometimes keep me company at night when I can’t sleep.
Well, that and the cat. She keeps me company also.
Oh, and the rain.
Do you believe in destiny? The thought that from the moment you are born, you have a path. And try as you might to veer left or right, your path is where you will go.
Do you believe that our life (lives?) are a circle, to be repeated over and over again…….and we are presented with the same opportunities until we chose the proper path?
(Random factoid…..there was a Merle Streep movie about this subject called Defending Your Life.)
At night, when my company is Suzy’s purr and tap-tap of rain on the windows, I wonder.
I wonder if my destiny was to be Faith’s mom. To watch over her.
Maybe my path was to be the guardian of her path.